3rd Sept2.30am- I have never been very disciplined... not recently...especially compared to my peers. I always wondered why. Lack of self control? pessimisism? Motivation? Well I have only ever been motivated to do things for one reason in my life. Again, it is a girl. My girlfriend is coming over on 8th September. Therefore, at this wee hour of the morning, I decided to put my something to a test. Can I put in enough effort, enough steel, enough fight, enough passion, to create a a 5 day FREE week ( to take her around) in just 5 Days ? Would I be able to accomplish enough work to take care of her without feeling guilty or being behind? This a test! This is a challenge! This is my life!
5.20pm- Tired after 7 hour classes and other chores. Should i feel guilty for coming home(to my room) and not starting work straight away? Maybe it is not realistic. I will let that slide with myself, or at least rationalize it. But I will bring the fire tonight. I swear. The target is right after dinner start work (because I am deprived of sleep so I am going to take an hours nap)
9.00pm- Still haven't started work. Decided that watching movie might inspire me. ARe u KIDDING ME? also, i have to help my fren tmrw morning to shift some stuff. losing time. yet still not doing work.
4th Sep12.00am- I guess love isn't a motivation either. I just spent the whole night dota-ing and watching movie. Even at this time, I still don't plan to sleep. Where are my priorities?
