Monday, September 20, 2010

Afraid

I finally understood after screaming some
I'd been afraid this whole time
I was afraid because I couldn't see my future
I was afraid of now knowing what I want to do
I was afraid of myself for not knowing that
And....
I was afraid of the days that nevertheless flew by without any mercy
But...
Even then...
If I keep riding like this, will I be able to see it?
Someday, even i...?

At the end of each day

The sound grew faint
Sentimental music started flowing in
Always asking the same questions
Too many questions
Then the flood begins
The imagined path of others
Like black figurines taunting
If only I could find the light
In this dark abyss

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

New day, New motivation

Obviously, as you can see from my previous post, I failed again.

So new motto: Determination, Passion , Exellence

Friday, September 3, 2010

3rd Sept to 7th Sept For Experiment or For Love

3rd Sept
2.30am- I have never been very disciplined... not recently...especially compared to my peers. I always wondered why. Lack of self control? pessimisism? Motivation? Well I have only ever been motivated to do things for one reason in my life. Again, it is a girl. My girlfriend is coming over on 8th September. Therefore, at this wee hour of the morning, I decided to put my something to a test. Can I put in enough effort, enough steel, enough fight, enough passion, to create a a 5 day FREE week ( to take her around) in just 5 Days ? Would I be able to accomplish enough work to take care of her without feeling guilty or being behind? This a test! This is a challenge! This is my life!

5.20pm- Tired after 7 hour classes and other chores. Should i feel guilty for coming home(to my room) and not starting work straight away? Maybe it is not realistic. I will let that slide with myself, or at least rationalize it. But I will bring the fire tonight. I swear. The target is right after dinner start work (because I am deprived of sleep so I am going to take an hours nap)

9.00pm- Still haven't started work. Decided that watching movie might inspire me. ARe u KIDDING ME? also, i have to help my fren tmrw morning to shift some stuff. losing time. yet still not doing work.

4th Sep
12.00am- I guess love isn't a motivation either. I just spent the whole night dota-ing and watching movie. Even at this time, I still don't plan to sleep. Where are my priorities?

Thursday, July 8, 2010

the hottest thing

I think the hottest thing is when a hot, (sluttiness is optional), chick takes a big whiff of the cigar/weed/cigarrette and blows it in to your mouth...

FUH!!! tat is like damn 'chat' hot la!!!

Too bad all this stuff is bad for health =(

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Same Face = Same Attitude

I starting to feel like the traditional chinese believe that you can predict how someone can act just by looking at their facial features is true after all. Seriously, don't you always get the feeling that people with the same face usually have the same attitdue ? Of course I understand that there are exceptions to the rule but that doesn't disprove that there might be some corelation between these 2 factors.

Everyone of have had this experience when you meet someone new, you may have certain expectation or stereotypes of his attitude based on his looks. This is partly because your brain assimilates this person with a person that you previously know that had acted in a certain way. Probably one of the few flaws of our brain that like to subconciously slot things into existing categories instead of making new ones although the basis for it may not be very objective. (of course there is an upside to why it works this way too, though I won't elaborate on it)

Anyway, when the person actually acts like what you expected, it is not suprising but rather very predictable and boring. This phenomenon happens about 50% of the time or more (abritary judgement from my experience) which I feel is enough to disaprove the notion that you can't judge a book by its cover.

So does this mean that your face determines your fate? Does your face determine your personality?

I like not to think so since i don't believe in the idea that fate is predestined. I am living proof that you can change your attitude and behaviour. So maybe we have been looking at it the wrong way. Maybe it is your attitude that shapes your face. Maybe your ruthlessness since young is the one that gave you that wide, square jaw.

Maybe thats why when you see someone with that "chiooon" or "lanci" look (cantonese lingo), you already know you dislike him. Maybe it is one of nature's natural mechanism to enable humans to know who like and dislike easier.

In short, those people who behave in a certain way may have shaped their face in a certain way.

Of course biologist, anthropology and a lot more categories of scientist would probably dismiss this theory as hogwash. Everybody knows that our facial features are determined by our genes.

However, I still think that it is a valid hypothesis worth pondering. It is back to the arguement of "Nature Vs Environment " and which of the factors affect the result more.

If this hypothesis ever helped someone win the noble prize in the next century or so, I hope that person gives credit to me for predicting this possible phenomenon. =)