Afraid

I finally understood after screaming some
I'd been afraid this whole time
I was afraid because I couldn't see my future
I was afraid of now knowing what I want to do
I was afraid of myself for not knowing that
And....
I was afraid of the days that nevertheless flew by without any mercy
But...
Even then...
If I keep riding like this, will I be able to see it?
Someday, even i...?