wH the 'Emo' & wh the 'Pissed Off' : Despair

Ever got the feeling that nothing matters??
is it because you have lost hope?
what have you lost hope from ?
trying too hard and not getting results?
or no being able to bring yourself to try for fear that you were never good enough to reach your dream ?
is that a feeling of self-pity?
or unrealistic expectations?
Can things ever change?
Is that every miniscule effort that they tell you will help change things ever count?

IT PISSES ME THE HELL OFF!!!!!! LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING ! IF I'M EVER GOING TO DIE, I"M GOING TO DIE FIGHTING! JUST WATCH!!! TO THE DEATH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!